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Fuck. It’s almost 7am and my mind’s wandering where it shouldn’t. I should be asleep. I wish I could fall asleep and wake up 16 so I could redo my entire adulthood up to this point. Oh well.


I’ve been doing pretty all right this week to be fair. I know right now can be chalked up to three hours of sleep and the fact it’s grey, rainy, and gloomy outside, but damn. I feel really sad right now, and I guess homesick? For a home that doesn’t exist anymore at that.

I just want to find someone who will love me, be content ordering food, cuddling on the couch, having lazy days and watching Netflix on days like this.

I miss being close to someone. I feel like I don’t know anyone but myself anymore.

I’m really excited to try authentic Korean BBQ for the first time. I found a good place in Richmond that has great reviews. Entree’s are like $20 though and comes with ~8 side dishes. You’re really supposed to go with a group because it’s literally a table worth of food, and it’s just going to be me which bums me out. I’ve been wanting to try it for so long. I guess I’m going to go alone and get a lunch special one day, at least I’ll still get to try things. Excited to try kimchi.

I’m 23 and I’ve never been single before. Now I’m in a brand new city. I don’t know how to make friends. What do people do my age? I guess I can find clubs to go to on weekends or something. I just need to put myself out there, otherwise I’ll never make any friends.


I’m going to take a nap.




laptop overheating?? pour water on it to cool it down!

i trusted you

Do not trust people like me. I will take you to museums, and parks, and monuments, and kiss you in every beautiful place, so that you can never go back to them without tasting me like blood in your mouth. I will destroy you in the most beautiful way possible. And when I leave you will finally understand why storms are named after people

(Source: flygoing)

Feeling negative/discouraged today. It’s Tuesday and I don’t have any sales yet (I have until Saturday, but still) it’s been non stop raining since yesterday and working door to door in the rain just sucks. Plus the neighborhood I’m in sucks too. Ugh, I just want to go home and play make believe in The Sims 4 in my perfect relationship and career.

I want to message you about how tonight turned out terrible, and I’m laying alone at 1:38am and I can’t get awful things out of my head. I know you can’t care though, and you don’t have the time to deal with me for that matter either. So I’ll keep to myself. I feel bad for pushing my burdens on you as it is, it isn’t fair. Here’s to wishing I had someone here for me.

Internet isn’t on in my new apartment yet. There’s no one to talk to/no one is replying to me. I’m sick as hell, and can’t breathe. But I made $525 in three hours of work, so at least I have that going for me which is nice. 9:07pm and I think I may just call it a night. Feels weird to go to sleep this early, but I’m bored and feel terrible :3

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