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Awake on 2.5 hours of sleep doing the last of my packing for Richmond. I can’t believe what happened last night. I really have cold feet about leaving, but I have to just keep moving forward. I legitimately randomly found this fortune in my shorts pocket this morning. I don’t even know where it’s from or the last time I had a cookie.

3:55am and currently driving on the interstate. Tomorrow’s the big move. When nothing can ever go back to how it was. I won’t lie. A part of me wants to give up. I know no night I have in the next few years can ever live up to what tonight was. I feel closure to an extent. I want to go 120 and just smash into a wall. Fall asleep replaying tonight’s memories forever.

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Having an emotional breakdown on a random Saturday night home alone at midnight. *sigh* I think I can count how many times I’ve cried in the last four years of my life on one hand, but tonight I’m just crumbling and I have no idea. I guess a lot of feelings I’ve been pushing away are surfacing. Oh well. I leave for Richmond for good Sept 1st and I just have to keep moving forward. I wish I had anyone to confide things in.

Richmond update*

Holy moly, the past two weeks have been chaos. Long story short I have settled on an apartment, gone through the application process and been approved in Richmond, and now the only thing to do is actually move. 

I was going to move this week, but Budget, Penske, and Uhaul (the only moving truck companies in my area) are all sold out until September first. I didn’t think that was possible, but apparently the end of summer and the end of the month is the busiest time of the year for these companies.

There’s also a story where Budget rented/reserved me a truck and when I went to get it they said they didn’t have the inventory on hand, so there’s that too.

Anyways, I have a moving truck reserved for Monday the first of September, so that is finally the date I can say I am leaving WV for good!

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Rant

My life has me so fucking busy these past couple of weeks. Like busier than I’ve felt in years. It’s good in the sense that it keeps my mind occupied and active, and where I’m at in life I don’t think starting a new relationship at this time would be the best idea. With that said however, how I long to come home after work and cuddle up with someone and just watch Netflix on the couch. To have someone to hold, and confide things in at the end of the day. I can survive on my own, but I still wouldn’t mind having someone in my life. I can’t wait to be fully settled down in Richmond with the new apartment and job, so I can start exploring what the city has to offer and having some fun.

I leave for Richmond VA tomorrow. It’s a five hour drive from here, and I can’t get to sleep. I’m excited and nervous at the same time. It also happens to be storming outside. Just laying in bed listening to the thunder and contemplating life. Hmm.

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