Holy moly, the past two weeks have been chaos. Long story short I have settled on an apartment, gone through the application process and been approved in Richmond, and now the only thing to do is actually move.
I was going to move this week, but Budget, Penske, and Uhaul (the only moving truck companies in my area) are all sold out until September first. I didn’t think that was possible, but apparently the end of summer and the end of the month is the busiest time of the year for these companies.
There’s also a story where Budget rented/reserved me a truck and when I went to get it they said they didn’t have the inventory on hand, so there’s that too.
Anyways, I have a moving truck reserved for Monday the first of September, so that is finally the date I can say I am leaving WV for good!
My life has me so fucking busy these past couple of weeks. Like busier than I’ve felt in years. It’s good in the sense that it keeps my mind occupied and active, and where I’m at in life I don’t think starting a new relationship at this time would be the best idea. With that said however, how I long to come home after work and cuddle up with someone and just watch Netflix on the couch. To have someone to hold, and confide things in at the end of the day. I can survive on my own, but I still wouldn’t mind having someone in my life. I can’t wait to be fully settled down in Richmond with the new apartment and job, so I can start exploring what the city has to offer and having some fun.
I leave for Richmond VA tomorrow. It’s a five hour drive from here, and I can’t get to sleep. I’m excited and nervous at the same time. It also happens to be storming outside. Just laying in bed listening to the thunder and contemplating life. Hmm.
Some nights are just going to be harder than others. There’s nothing that you can do about it in the moment, but keep your head up and move forward to tomorrow.
Guys I have a problem. I really can’t take this song off of repeat. It is so fucking good (✿◠‿◠)~♥
So I decided to go to Walmart at like 3:00am tonight. I’m not sure why, I was feeling very off and detached. I guess I just needed to get out of my apartment. It was probably the weirdest I’ve felt in a while actually. While I was there just browsing isles I came across a can of tuna. For whatever reason it instantly gave me tunnel vision, and I felt a panic attack beginning to set on. Keep in mind I haven’t had a legitimate full-blown panic attack in about four years. I felt like literally crying in the middle of the isle. I’m not sure what’s wrong with me, but luckily I quickly pulled myself together and moved on.
I think Chris Pratt is great and all, and I love the amount of success he is getting. But holy fuck, I can not go on the internet for more than 15 seconds without seeing a post related to him.
With that said, this is for all of my followers who are part of the Star Lord hype. Here he is rapping to Forgot About Dre in case you haven’t seen it.
If I had to say what I miss the absolute most about being in a relationship, I would have to honestly say the spooning/cuddling. There hasn’t been a feeling in the world that has compared for me to being wrapped around someone I loved while falling asleep. I have never been more content with the world, had a greater sense of security, or feeling of safeness than when hugging the person I cared about as I drifted off to sleep night and night again.